So to start this post off I just wanted to let you all know that I hate growing up. I wish I could go back to the days when my biggest worry coloring inside the lines.
Today is a decently big day for me. Taking the Graduate Record Exam for the second time this afternoon, however before that I will be partaking in a phone "interview" with the professor I would like to study under up at the University of Alaska-Fairbanks. A little nerve racking how both of these upcoming events have the power to make or break my future. Oh did I mention that today is the first day of a much needed Thanksgiving break? Too bad I can't enjoy it by spending some hours on the slope or something.
It's days like today that really make me question things. Part of me want's to not worry about Grad school and just go off and explore the world, but the other part of me wants to go and become a doctor and get published or be a big name in industry. I'm trying to find a nice balance but sometimes it feels like I'm going to make a terrible decision and regret the path I head down.
So I think I just got ome kind of answer. As I'm writing this I'm listening to my blogspot playlist. Faith of the Heart by Russell Watson, Falling for the First Time by Barenaked Ladies and Imperfection by Saving Jane. I'll post some lyrics here and let you decide what I'm being told.
'Cause I've got faith of the heart
I'm going where my heart will take me
I've got faith to believe
I can do anything
I've got strength of the soul
And no one's gonna bend or break me
I can reach any star
I've got faith, I’ve got faith, faith of the heart
Anyone perfect must be lying, anything easy has its cost
Anyone plain can be lovely, anyone loved can be lost
What if I lost my direction? What if I lost sense of time?
What if I nursed this infection? Maybe the worst is behind
It feels just like I'm falling for the first time
